Life Is But A Dream...

There are many things I am not.


I am not decisive. Even when forced to make a decision, I'll do my best to find a way to not.


I am not a risk taker. I'm the total opposite. The weird part is, I've known this for most of my life, though I've never actually said it out loud. I think my usual term is "cautious". I am cautious, conservative and certainly not a risk taker. I am not one to challenge myself. It's been a challenge (no pun intended) to try and change that. I think that's why I took up running as a hobby. Well, that and because I could stand to lose a few. 


Some may say that when it comes to certain things, I'm severely lacking in the self control department. Fidgeting. Eating. Picking. Biting. Chewing. Cookies. Snacking. Carbing. Daydreaming. 


Strange things we feel when we think nothing makes sense. But it may be that then everything makes sense.